In the midst of busy days, places to be, meals to serve and parenting to do, I sometimes overlook the simplicity of being mommy. I get overwhelmed. I get frustrated. I get disappointed. I miss the big picture. As day one of summer break ends, I'm asking God not to let that happen. I'm asking him to help me cherish the little moments.
The past 8 days have been hard on these little guys. Their daddy has been very busy. They have hardly seen him. Their mommy has had a high level of stress and anxiety because of a situation that is completely out of our control. Their vacation was cancelled. They have been ushered out of rooms where they should not hear certain conversations. They have worn headphones in order to shield them from overhearing things in a meeting. They have, in many ways, been on the back burner.
But, as I snuggled with Micah tonight, I felt sure that God whispered to my soul that these guys are our priority. They are our biggest responsibility. They are the first hearts we should shepherd. They are the first ones who need to feel loved and secure from us. Then, I came out of his room and saw this on Twitter.
Children are like sponges. They might not understand the facts, but they will absorb the emotions of their parents. @onefleshrev
— Mark Asbell (@MarkAsbell) May 28, 2013
So, I'm going to bed tonight with renewed hope of a new day tomorrow. The disappointments of this week are done and we can't change that. But, the fun to be had tomorrow is up to me. The joy in our house is up to me. The pictures we paint, the games we play and the snuggles we share...all up to me. While the situation didn't change and the people who need Dan in this trying time won't be any different tomorrow, the way I face the day will. I'm excited to see how God will use me in the lives of my little boys tomorrow. After all, they are my most important mission field.