Sunday, March 7, 2010
WOW! What a whirlwind we have had here the last few days!!! To say we are shocked is an understatement. We were done having kids. We were set on life as it we knew it. We had no plans to have another baby. God thought different! I assure you, after all we went through to have Jonah, we consider this news a huge blessing. Are we shocked and surprised? Yes! Do we know how blessed we are? YES! I'll admit, in the first few minutes of seeing the 2 pink lines, my happiness immediately turned to sadness for so many friends/family who have longed/begged/cried/prayed for a baby. So, I paused to ask God to give them the desire of their heart while I thanked him for the chance to be mommy again. Many of those sweet friends/family read this blog. Just don't give up hope! I'll keep praying and hoping with you!!
I had no reason to believe or suspect that I would be pregnant. Although, it is a little ironic to me that it took us 3.5 years to get pregnant with Jonah and here we are 3.5 years later and pregnant with baby #2. I was incredibly exhausted last week. I could barely hold my eyes open. We normally go to bed at midnight each night but I found myself in bed before 10 a couple of different times. Then, on Thursday, I had my big Tupperware Open House. I worked ALL DAY long cleaning house then greeting people and taking orders. When I woke up Friday morning, I could barely move. I was so tired.
Dan worked Friday so I spent the day trying to decide how I got so lazy after not working for 6 months. I've worked a full-time job since I was 15 years old so I just assumed the 6 months at home since we moved here made me so useless that I couldn't work a long day without getting exhausted! (So glad that wasn't the actual case!!) I picked Jonah up from school and had to fight to keep my eyes open on the way. I turned on to Taylor Road headed home then decided to cut through Long Leaf Plantation and head to CVS to buy a test.
I came home and immediately took the test. It only took seconds for the first line to show then the second one came. OH JEEPERS!!! I looked at the clock to see it was 1:14 p.m. Dan wasn't due home for another couple of hours. SO, I had to call someone. SO, I did! They freaked out with me. I realized that even thought I was so completely shocked, I still wanted to tell Dan in somewhat of a creative way. (Watch Video below)
Yep, I let Jonah tell him! Jonah had no idea what the test was but he couldn't wait to say SURPRISE! Dan, as you saw, was completely surprised. As you can see, Jonah wants a brother and wants him name to be Sammy. (By the way, not gonna happen!!) Later that night, he decided he would rather name the baby Jesus. (Once again, not gonna happen!) From those first two suggestions from Jonah, we have decided not to let him be involved in the naming process. :-)
I've never been one to wait on telling people about pregnancy. I understand the thought behind "what if something happens?" but I only see that as on opportunity to have more people praying for me if something DID happen. My only priority was to make sure the grandparents all knew before the news was public. We would have probably waited just week or so but since my mom and grandmother were coming to our house the next day, we really wanted to tell them in person. I had seen this super cute shirt at Carters before I left LA. I called one of the outlet malls to see if they had it. Since they did, they held it for me. I swung by to get it before heading to meet my family at Sweet Tomatoes.
After they got the news and recovered from their shock, we headed home to take some pictures of Jonah in his shirt to send to the other grandparents. You can go here to see the picture they got and the video of Jonah's announcement. Dan's mom immediately called and then Dan's grandmother. Later that night, Dan's dad and Linda called. Once they all heard the news, we were very happy to share with others.
We still kept things a little quiet because Dan wanted to tell the church this morning. It was a very fun announcement at the end of each service. He had one of these pictures flash up on the screen. It took a few seconds for things to register. People saw the cute face then realized the words on his shirt. There were lots of cheers and applause. (and even a few tears!)
I've spent the afternoon answering calls, texts and facebook messages. I still have many phone calls and emails to return but let me say here just how grateful we are for your many words of kindness. While we are shocked and surprised, we are overjoyed. We trust the providence of God and know that His ways and will are much higher than ours. We are asking Him already to help us be good parents. Before Jonah, we knew nothing about parenting. Now, we only know how to parent one child. And, sometimes, I'm not so sure we know how to do that! We are totally dependent on His leadership when it comes to raising Godly kids.
The last 3.5 years with Jonah have been so happy. He is such an easy, wonderful, joyful and precious little boy. I don't doubt that I can love more than one child. People do it every day. But, I get a little sad thinking of Jonah. I feel like he has been the center of our world for his whole little life and we are about to disrupt that world. My friend Aja is pregnant with her 2nd and I've been reading her blog and just crying with her over her feelings for her little guy. I totally get her feelings now. All of you moms out there know that our feelings are totally unfounded because you have a house full of kiddos. But for now, we have to wait to experience that for ourselves. The little boy sleeping in the back of my house will be fine. And, somewhere along the way, this mommy's heart will expand with love for the new little life growing inside of me...all the while knowing "The Lord has done great things for us and we are filled with JOY!"