Friday, April 2, 2010

A VERY special gift

Several weeks ago, we got a heavy box delivered to the front door by our mailman. I immediately recognized the address because it used to be our address! It was addressed to Jonah but I opened it! :-) Watch the video to see what it was!









It was the most special and thoughtful gift from so many people we love in Vidalia. Jonah spent the first three years of his life there and missing those special friends has been the most difficult part of this move. It has been so important to me that he remember those friends and know how instrumental they were to the first years of his life. We make special efforts to show him pictures and videos of them, SKYPE with them, talk on the phone to them and to talk about them to him. This gift will make that so easy to do.





Each book was signed and had a special note to Jonah from the person who gave him the book and then read it to him on video. I will treasure this forever!


Thursday, April 1, 2010

Computer Boy

We pulled our old PC laptop out a few weeks ago for Jonah. They have been teaching him about computers at school and I had no idea he knew as much as he does. He knows how to start and shut down the laptop. He can click on Internet Explorer and find the websites he enjoys. He types his name and a few other things when asked. I'm so impressed with his computer ability considering he is only 3 years old.



Sea World with lots of people we love

One of the great things about living in the vacation capital of the world is that lots of people you love come to visit. There are some who try to disguise their visits as their great love for us, but most everyone else comes for the entertainment factor. We try our best to see people who are here. Some stay at our house and that makes it really easy to see them. Some stay near the attractions or near their meeting locations. It takes a little planning to make that happen with their schedules and ours.

A few weeks ago, our good friends from Vidalia, Cliff and Debra (Beppa) were in Orlando for a Banking Conference. I blogged about that already. We spent time with them on Tuesday and while we were there, I found out she was free on Thursday. Jonah and I were already scheduled to be at Sea World Thursday to meet some of my family from Mississippi and other family from Tampa. So, I invited Beppa to come with us.

My motivation for her doing Sea World with her was to visit more. I never thought about the perks of her being there. I had completely forgotten that I couldn't ride any of the rides with Jonah since I was pregnant. My family all had their own kids to ride with so it would have been difficult for him to ride otherwise. But, Beppa stepped in and saved the day. And, Jonah loved riding with her!



My cousin Crystal was here from MS with her mother in law and two kiddos. Bayleigh will be 6 in November and Trace will be 2 in May. Jonah and Bay hit it off big time. She was so sweet to him and he just adored her.
Beppa bought Jonah this super cool Shamu straw that fit on top of any regular size coke bottle. He drank some serious lemonade out of that thing.
My cousin Brandy lives in Tampa so she and her hubby and sweet Mia drove over for the day too. Brandy and Crystal are my two youngest cousins. Oh, and Brandy is pregnant too! Her baby is due November 5th and mine is due November 9th. Never in a million years could we have imagined being pregnant together. Especially so close together. I bet she never imagined either that she would have family living 2 hours from her. It is going to be fun to do this baby journey together!! Well, except for the sick part. She and I are keeping the Zofran company in business!!
Here we all are with 4 of my Granny's 8 (soon to be 10) great grand kids. (Crystal, Trace, Brandy, Mia, Bayleigh, Me & Jonah)
We also saw the BELIEVE show for the first time since the accident with the whale back in February. WOW! It was quite different. I'm not sure you would notice much if you never saw the other show but we saw it several times and the differences are so blaring. It is so sad what happened to the trainer. Not sure how Sea World will recover from that and what their next step will be. Regardless, those are amazing creatures!



Beppa and Minnie Pearl!
Bayleigh was so sweet to share her cotton candy with Jonah. He made a huge mess with it but loved every bite. He ate blue since "blue is for boys!"




Crystal let all the kids play a carnival type game that involved throwing a ball into milk jugs. Let's just say that I'm not pinning my hopes on Jonah having a career in Major League Baseball. Her two, on the other hand, were a different story. Jonah finally won a sympathy duck and chose pink. Nope, not blue, green or yellow. PINK!
I also had the great privilege of meeting up with my college buddy and great friends Jon & Sarah Beth Cooper! Seriously, I love it when lots of people end up in the same park on the same day. Makes life much easier!! Jon is the Student Minister at Highland Baptist Church in Meridian. When you have friends in the ministry, it is super hard to see each other. We have to rely on things like Facebook and text messages to keep in touch. So, times like this at Sea World are so precious!



Tuesday, March 30, 2010

Update

I vividly remember the feeling associated with wanting a baby but that not happening. I remember trying to decide how God chose to give someone a baby but not someone else. I remember watching people with newborns complain about no sleep. I remember hearing pregnant women talk about how miserable they were. I said over and over that if God ever allowed me to be pregnant that I would never complain! I remember sharing with my closest friends and family how bad I felt when pregnant with Jonah but I made sure to never say it publicly. And really, minus a little issue with my side, my pregnancy was great with Jonah after the first 3.5 months.

So, here I am again with baby #2. I've been in bed since Sunday afternoon. While I feel really bad and can't keep much down, it isn't the physical part that hurts me. It is that little 3.5 year old boy that stole my heart several years ago. Rather than putting him to bed right now and snuggling with him, he is spending the night with a church member because I can't care for him. Today, I had probably my lowest point in motherhood and broke my heart.

I called Dan at 11:30 and through tears told him I needed help. My little boy was standing at my bed telling me he was hungry and I literally could not get up to feed him. I tried to stand up but got sick. I laid on the tile floor in my bathroom until I could regain some strength but only made it back to my bed. To have your precious little boy look at you and beg for something to eat and you not be able to give it to him is TOUGH!

Dan called Beth Hallstrom, one of our church members and she came right over. She picked him up and I just cried. I felt like a failure as his mom. I had such big plans for his spring break this week. We were going to the zoo, the beach, play in the yard, have play dates with friends, spend time in South Carolina with Doug & Allison and just enjoy life. Instead, I've read him 5 books in my bed, given him a few cups of juice, played cars in my bed and started a few movies for him. Not at all what I envisioned.

I'm not sure how long this sickness will last. I remember feeling so bad with Jonah but having nothing to do except get better. The story is different with a little one at home. Several people have told us how happy they are because we are having another baby. Some people know this but most don't so I'll share it here. I always wanted lots of kids. I love kids. But, there were 2 reasons we were skeptical to try again. The first was that I was afraid to get as emotionally invested in wanting another baby like I did the first time. If you haven't been there, you can't understand that. But, when you want a baby and can't get pregnant, it consumes you. It creeps into every area and relationship in your life. I did not want to do that again. The second reason was that I could not imagine being as sick as I was with the first time while I had another child to care for. I'm living the fear of that second one now.

While lying in bed, I keep reminding myself of all the things I know, but it still makes me sad! I'm so grateful for Dan. He is amazing. He cooks, cleans, takes care of Jonah, loves me and manages to maintain the work ethic at his job that I've always respected him for. He's a great husband and a wonderful father. I'm also blessed by this new family at Stetson Baptist Church. People who I've never met have called and offered to bring meals or keep Jonah. Tonight, he is spending the night with a family who loves him so much and getting up early tomorrow morning for a trip to the farmer's market with them. While I keep feeling bad for him, he's having a blast! My mom called to see if I wanted her to get in the car and start driving this way.

I know this is just a brief stop on this 9 month journey and the payoff at the end is far more rewarding than I can ever imagine. So, for now, I'll just dream of that day and remind myself just how blessed we are to be walking this road for the second time.

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